So today while cleaning my office one thing I realized is why I really want to get my weight off... My wedding photos...

Now for those of you who know me and maybe those of you who have read some of my stuff know that I am already married with a great husband and two beautiful children, so why would I be concerned about a wedding?? Let alone photos...

Well our wedding was very different than most. We were married right at the end of a church service back in my home town of Sterling, IL. I had invited about 10 people plus both families and although it was just right, just as perfect as it could be at the time... I was pregnant, there was no white dress, it just wasn't what I had planned on for a second nuptual. I had always had dreams of a cute little white flowing dress with no shoes and my husband to be in a white linen suit, or something close to that, on a beach in the Caymen's saying our wedding vows with about 20 of our closest friends and family, and yes we would ethen float off into the sunset and live happily ever after.

It's not that way. I wore a white top and pants with a long lite blue linen jacket over the top in hopes of hiding my belly. I didn't have anyone do my hair I don't even know if I had my nails done... we just needed, and wanted, to get married. It just wasn't what I wanted it to look like.

On our anniversary every year Don likes to goof with me and tell me that we are married a year longer then what we actually are because he doesn't want Grace to know that we were pregnant when we got married... yet the problem that he doesn't seem to understand is that there are pictures. There are pictures of us in our attire of the day, there are pictures at the small reception we had afterwards, there are pictures of the reception we had at our home three weeks later with me BIG AS A BARN... Girls know. Grace is going to know that we did not have a "traditional" wedding. She's going to ask where are the photos, where is the beautiful dress I wore, she is going to ask. I asked my Mom. She too did not where a traditional dress. I remember when I saw that she had what i think was 3 or 4 pictures from her wedding and none were with my dad. A girl knows.

So, the weight, the pictures. I am hoping that by February I can have at least 40 pounds off and that maybe Don and I can go with Megan and George to Vegas... (George has a Volleyball tournement) and maybe I can buy a cute white dress and Don a linen suit, and we can go to any one of The Wedding Chapels out there and say our vows over again, and have someone take some nice pictures. Or maybe by April I will have more weight off and I could buy a white dress and Don and I could go to the beach in South Carolina and have some pictures taken that we can call our wedding photos. Just something. I just don't want to be big as a barn!!! I want the photos to be special. I have a special guy and we were truly made for each other... I just want to have those photos that capture a moment. Maybe silly but it is on of my goals.